Posts tagged ‘life’
I can finally say that I’m happy..
With no tinge of bitterness in me. I admit I’ve been really bitter for almost 2 years which made my heart stone cold. I’ve come to realize that pain is a part of everything and it doesn’t only occur whenever you’re in a relationship. 🙂 Bitterness ate my whole being. I hated everyone, I hated men, I hated everything that has something to do with love. I always asked myself “Why doesn’t it work out for me?’.. And I said to myself..
Yep. Today’s my 17th birthday.
Shh. 2 weeks to go before my classes starts. Sa June 16 na and I can’t wait. Alam ko di magiging ordinary day yun since hindi naman magiging ordinary ang feeling ko. Unlike when I was still in highschool, the only exciting day was my first day in Highschool as a Freshman. At 2 weeks from now, I’ll be a Freshman again. College nga lang. Lahat naman siguro satin eh kinabahan nung first day nila sa college kasi siyempre totally different na. The teachers will be different, perhaps more “weird” classmates, and yeah, no permanent classmates. Unlike nung nasa gradeschool ako, di naman talaga ako ganun ka-excited tumapak sa highschool kasi hindi naman ganun ka-different.
I’ve always been a happy kid. I wasn’t spoiled, but I get the stuff I want by doing something good in return. When I was younger, home, friends and school were the problems on my list. Home, because I always wanted my parents to be happy. Friends, because through them, I feel that I belong. Home, because it was a place safety, a place of happiness. When I was a kid, I always do my best in school to get an honor card. Because that honor card is my ticket to buying the stuff that I’ve been eyeing on.
Have you ever had that feeling wherein you have done something terribly wrong but you can’t ever take it back or do something about it? And how you wish that your life had a Backspace button to undo that bad thing? I guess we all do, but lucky for those who never had any regrets all their life.
I’ve come to a realization with a forum thread I currently answered. “Bakit #2 ang pencil #2?”. A confusing question but I guess it simply asks kung bakit tinawag na #2 si pencil #2. Okay, perhaps a lot of us will say these kinds of answers:
” Kasi second type siya ng pencil na ginawa ”
” Dahil wala ng ibang pwede ipangalan after ni pencil #1. “
The little kid I met when I was in second year highschool came across my mind today. I was the typical highschool girl that would want to make tambay at a nearby vendor’s stall outside the school. And on a certain sunny afternoon, I met a kid whom I won’t ever forget. Ok, so I did forget his name but I was certain it started with a J. I’m just not good with names, that’s why.