Archive for November, 2008
Before I entered college, the very first thing that bothered me, is if I would be able to find friends.
Sure. I’m approachable, friendly and all, but, to tell you honestly, I’m kinda picky when it comes to choosy friends, and I guess maybe, only a few talented people could stand me. I admit I’m extremely moody, extremely ma-pride and, I usually say what I want to say. No pretending, no excuses, just the plain truth. It’s actually a wonder on how my bestfriend was able to cope up with my complicated attitude. Even I myself can tell that I am complicated. There are times that I want to give up, but hey, it’s me, I’d go loco if I gave up on myself.
So here comes the friendship complication. Really, it pisses me off. Wait, lemme give you a situation. If your friend (who’s close to you and you always get to be with that person almost everyday) suddenly acts weird and suddenly gives you a cold shoulder, what would you want that person to do?
Seriously, the words that were in bold are the only ones that I want to blog. It’s a pretty ambiguous word but I know people would be able to figure out why. I seriously want to give up this very minute. I don’t know if I want to blame myself for still trying to continue the course that I currently have. My grades are not failing, but my heart is. Truth is, I only perform the return demonstrations for the sake of getting a grade, not for the love or curiosity of it.
Next week, it’ll be our return demonstration in BEDMAKING. I swear we have bedmaking. I don’t get it why nurses have to learn how to change the beddings and stuff, when it’supposed to be the housekeeping department’s job. Right? The return demonstration will already start on Monday, and I haven’t studied for even a single procedure.
I just don’t know if GOODLUCK could do me any good.
I guess I can finally say goodbye to First Semester and say “hi” to Second Semester.
I got my grades awhile ago, and those grades aren’t enough for bragging. I’m not a straight-A student, though my parents want me to be one, but my brain just can’t carry the load, or I simply am just a slowpoke and a slothy person. But, I still can say that I am happy with my grades eventhough I wasn’t qualified to be Dean’s Lister.
So, atleast now, my feelings are a lot more better than a few weeks ago and I’m not anxious anymore. I won’t worry if I’ll be an irregular student because I failed a subject. Because I passed all my subjects and I will still be a regular student like! yeah! *rak’en’roll*
This simply means, I’m off to second semester, and God knows where I’ll be standing. Goodluck sakin! 😀
Bigla kong na-miss si Tatay.
Tatay ang tawag ko sa Lolo ko. Namatay siya two years ago. Mahal na mahal ko yun kasi malambing, mabait at bolero. Kaya ko nasabing bolero si Tatay, kasi, lagi niyang sinasabing ako raw ang pinakamagandang apo niya. Naman ‘tong si Tatay, bolero ever. Pero ‘di nga, everytime na sinasabi niya sakin yun, eh liverspread ang drama ng lola niyo. Malambing rin si Tatay kasi kapag napabisita ako sa bahay niya, lagi dapat akong may pasalubong na kiss sa kanya. Mabait si Tatay kasi panay bisita rito sa bahay para maghatid ng cookies, ice cream at chiffon cake.
At dahil wala na si Tatay, wala ng bumibisita rito para maghatid ng ice cream at cookies. Di kasi ganun si Nanay (Lola ko), pero mahal ko rin yun. Marahil yun ang dahilan kung bat miss ko si Tatay. Isang pang dahilan kung bakit ko siya na-mimiss, kasi siya lang ang Tatay na nadatnan ko. Yung isang Lolo ko kasi, namatay bago pa ako napanganak, sa katunayan nga, namatay na siya bago pa lang nag-asawa ang mga magulang ko.
Ngayong undas talaga nagsisilabasan ang concern para sa mga namatay ng mga mahal sa buhay. Sa sobrang concern ng iba, pinipili pang matulog at mag-overnight sa sementeryo. Yung iba nga, magdadala pa ng videoke at maiinum. Ano yun? Inaaliw ang patay? Pero, ito na nga ata ang tradisyon ng ibang Pilipino. Walang trick or treat dito sa Pinas, pero merong happy hour sa sementeryo, sabayan niyo ng eat all you can.
O siya, hanggang dito na lang yung post ko, sana nasa langit na lahat ng mga mahal natin sa buhay na dati ay nasa purgatoryo..
At teka.. Bumisita kayo sa mga yumao niyo ng mahal sa buhay. Pero kung busy kayo, okay lang. Sa tingin ko eh sila na ang bibisita sa inyo. LOL