I just have to do it

Sometimes, you just have to let it go without thinking what will happen next.

It hurts to remove something that sticks on you like Elmer’s glue.

I called him INGRATE.. I called him a BASTARD..

I never wanted to do that. Never in my life did I want to call someone like that..

Until it dawned on me..

I know why I did it..

.. just for me to hate him and force myself to let him go.

I congratulate myself for being imaginative, and then I cry myself to sleep.

10-day class suspension

Due to A(h1n1).

Most of my schoolmates were extremely happy when our President announced it. Others even jumped for joy and probably almost reached the ceiling due to adrenaline rush. I really don’t know if i should be happy about it because this only means one thing.. There probably would be lesser days for the semestral break and holiday break. Meeeh. Darn it. Darn it. Darn it.

Though, pushing through with the classes would also be risky, considering a couple of people getting sick. I guess this is all for the best. But, 10 days? What should I do? T_T

My 18th birthday celebration

I decided to celebrate my 18th birthday party with the orphans of SMAC sisters. I was actually inspired by my close friend Shayla. Having been able to celebrate it with them and also with my family friends, very close friends, bestfriends and family was I guess one of the best decisions that I have ever made in my entire life.

Doing this isn’t just because I want to be the talk of the town, neither do I wanted to praised at, but rather, I have come to a realization that i had been living 18 years of my life receiving the things that I want whenever my birthday arrives. This time, on my 18th birthday, instead of me receiving, I want to GIVE and let OTHERS RECEIVE instead.

I know that I am so blessed. Good and genuine friends, loving and supportive family and relatives, so what more could I ask for?

My debut might not be that extravagant, nor one of the traditional ones, but I honestly and firmly say that this has been the BEST BIRTHDAY PARTY THAT I HAVE EVER HAD.

This is an event that I will never ever forget.

P.S,
Here’s a public link to my facebook photo album that consists some of the photos from my birthday celeb.

–>  18th birthday party photos

First time to be absent

Ever since the day I stepped in to college life, I never got the chance to be absent, well, maybe I was just this good student who really makes an effort to be present on a daily basis. Though, yesterday, I had a fever so I really have to cut my classes, but I wasn’t worrying about anything yesterday because my afternoon classes only consists of minor subjects, atleast I was able to attend my major subject in the morning. But today, I decided to cut my classes for the whole day.

I sooooo have a lot of worries in my mind. Just like how on earth am I going to secure an excuse slip, there’s a return demo tomorrow on Catheterization and I missed two quizzes already.

Utot lang

PROOOT PROOT PROOOT.

Masyado nang malapit ang pasko. Namili na nga ako ng mga regalo eh. Lahat na ata ng tao nakikinabang sa christmas sale kahit na yung mga hindi naman nag-cecelebrate ng pasko. LOL. Teka.. Alam ko na anong bumabagabag sa isipan mo.. Anong konek ng content ng blog ko sa title..

Taga-Davao kasi ako. Sikat ang Davao ng dahil sa DDS at MILF, pero mga chong.. walang barilan dito sa Davao, maliban na lang siguro sa mga trying hard na CRIPS at BLOODS “kuno” na nagpapatayan sa autoshop compound. Sikat rin ang Davao kapag pasko, dahil dito sa Davao, bawal ang paputok.. kaya.. UTOT na lang ang ginagamit para mag-ingay. Hehe. Di ah. Biro lang. Pero, seryoso, bawal paputok dito. Kung bakit? Tanong niyo kay Mayor Duterte.

Kidding aside, wala naman akong violent reaction sa NO FIREWORKS policy dito sa Davao. Okay rin naman kasi para naman di mabawasan yung mga daliri ng mga ka-Dabawenyo ko. Isa pa, iwas disgrasya na rin. Mas mahal magpa-ospital kesa bumili ng sandamakmak na fireworks.

Ay, siya nga pala. Merry Christmas sa inyo! Nood na lang ako fireworks display sa tv.

Undas

Bigla kong na-miss si Tatay.

Tatay ang tawag ko sa Lolo ko. Namatay siya two years ago. Mahal na mahal ko yun kasi malambing, mabait at bolero. Kaya ko nasabing bolero si Tatay, kasi, lagi niyang sinasabing ako raw ang pinakamagandang apo niya. Naman ‘tong si Tatay, bolero ever. Pero ‘di nga, everytime na sinasabi niya sakin yun, eh liverspread ang drama ng lola niyo. Malambing rin si Tatay kasi kapag napabisita ako sa bahay niya, lagi dapat akong may pasalubong na kiss sa kanya. Mabait si Tatay kasi panay bisita rito sa bahay para maghatid ng cookies, ice cream at chiffon cake.

At dahil wala na si Tatay, wala ng bumibisita rito para maghatid ng ice cream at cookies. Di kasi ganun si Nanay (Lola ko), pero mahal ko rin yun. Marahil yun ang dahilan kung bat miss ko si Tatay. Isang pang dahilan kung bakit ko siya na-mimiss, kasi siya lang ang Tatay na nadatnan ko. Yung isang Lolo ko kasi, namatay bago pa ako napanganak, sa katunayan nga, namatay na siya bago pa lang nag-asawa ang mga magulang ko.

Ngayong undas talaga nagsisilabasan ang concern para sa mga namatay ng mga mahal sa buhay. Sa sobrang concern ng iba, pinipili pang matulog at mag-overnight sa sementeryo. Yung iba nga, magdadala pa ng videoke at maiinum. Ano yun? Inaaliw ang patay? Pero, ito na nga ata ang tradisyon ng ibang Pilipino. Walang trick or treat dito sa Pinas, pero merong happy hour sa sementeryo, sabayan niyo ng eat all you can.

O siya, hanggang dito na lang yung post ko, sana nasa langit na lahat ng mga mahal natin sa buhay na dati ay nasa purgatoryo..

At teka.. Bumisita kayo sa mga yumao niyo ng mahal sa buhay. Pero kung busy kayo, okay lang. Sa tingin ko eh sila na ang bibisita sa inyo. LOL

Melamine

Dami atang naloloka sa melamine ah. Mas naloka pa sila sa melamine kesa sa shuttoyshades.

Ano nga ba yung melamine? Nakakamatay ba yun? Naku, sensya na. Masyado kasi ako naging busy sa school. Wala na akong time maghanap at mag-research tungkol sa melamine na yan. Lahat kasi ng kaharap ko sa school eh yung Anatomy and Physiology kong libro. Sabayan pa natin ng Psychology at Theoretical Foundation of Nursing. Lol. Nerd ba? Di ah.. Kailangan eh. As if I have a choice. Toink.

Back to the start all over again.. Melamine.. Ayun sa aking mga sources, nakakalason raw ito? How trulaloo? Marami na bang namatay? ha? ha? Tsk. Tsk. Pero teka, lahat na lang ata ng uso eh may negative at may defect. Marami na tayong natunghayang gaya nito. Enumerate ko ha?

Guerra dito, Bang bang doon.

This is depressing. Is Mindanao in war again?

“When will this EVER stop?”

I’m not fully blaming the MILF for this, but, who else should be blamed aside from the fact that GMA sucks at the moment?

I just came home from Saranggani, Alabel and I did love the place. Very solemn, very peaceful. But my daydream stopped when my Dad received a text message that there’s a commotion in Saraggani. I also saw the news awhile ago and a lot of families are forced to evacuate from their homes because the rebels are burning their humble abode.

Sino namang may gusto na sunugin ang bahay? Dugo at pawis ang puhunan para lang makatayo ng bahay, tapos, susunugin lang? Naman eh!

And what, will those foolish acts help them gain recognition? NO.

People will only hate them and hate them, and hate them some more. They are so inconsiderate. And then I thought that Muslims were family oriented people, but how come they would even hurt their own fellow Muslims?

I don’t have anything againts them but I just hope they know better. If this will not be resolved, I guess Philippines would rather expect a CIVIL WAR to happen.

One word for them? LAME.

Lemme spell that for you.. L-A-M-E. You guys bring disgrace to your God.

 

DISCLAIMER: This ain’t a RACIAL BLOGPOST so you feeble-minded free readers, don’t even dare give me goddamn comments saying that I discriminate.

The Charmed One

 The Charmed One is the Special one.

 

I believe in such quote. I really know it implies to reality, and yes, it happened to my life. I consider my special brother as a charmed one. Him, as a special child, makes me grow into a better person with a better outlook towards life. I consider myself being a semi-quitter. It’s true that I’m tough, but my toughness isn’t enough to face life’s trials. I often tell myself that God would be the one to take care of the rest, let myself become carefree of what might happen in the future. But NO, I shouldn’t because I have a life long mission, and that is to take care of my brother. Because of my brother’s existence, I learned to value life and blessings. Taking things for granted is absolutely wrong, because of my brother, he made me feel that I am luckier and I shouldn’t waste my life on crap. I knew I couldn’t put myself into trouble because if I did, I wouldn’t be of any help to him. God gave him to me to let me know I have a purpose and that I have a responsibility. As an older sister, I know that his life is in my hands sooner or later.