I’m a kid no more

Got that right.

Happily turned to the legal age just now. Yep. 18th birthday it is.

I could probably say that I’m a kid no more. Being in the legal age doesn’t just seem to mean that I could freely do whatever I want. I cannot deny the fact that some advantages is knocking on my door right now, but I actually have to take resposibility of my actions because now, I can actually be locked in jail — if I did something againts the law or againts your human rights or let’s just say everyone’s rights. *Can I LOL on that?*

P.S,

For those who would like to marry me, grab your chance now. *Hahaha. NEVER*

Friendship complication

Before I entered college, the very first thing that bothered me, is if I would be able to find friends.

Sure. I’m approachable, friendly and all, but, to tell you honestly, I’m kinda picky when it comes to choosy friends, and I guess maybe, only a few talented people could stand me. I admit I’m extremely moody, extremely ma-pride and, I usually say what I want to say. No pretending, no excuses, just the plain truth. It’s actually a wonder on how my bestfriend was able to cope up with my complicated attitude. Even I myself can tell that I am complicated. There are times that I want to give up, but hey, it’s me, I’d go loco if I gave up on myself.

So here comes the friendship complication. Really, it pisses me off. Wait, lemme give you a situation. If your friend (who’s close to you and you always get to be with that person almost everyday) suddenly acts weird and suddenly gives you a cold shoulder, what would you want that person to do?

Rebellious? You sure?

I want this, you dislike that — makes me a rebel? It’s not what you think it is.

legend:

CHILD

PARENT

Rock songs, Metallica, screamo, emo music yeahhh!!!

- Kiddo, you are such a rebel. Why listen to those songs? Those songs are from Satan.

Black clothes, black jeans, tongue rings, bellybutton piercings..

- You look like a bitch, why are you so rebellious?

Arrived at 10pm from school..

- That isn’t the time that students go home!

Silence.. Silence.. Alone.

- Why are you being a rebel?! Get out of your room and fix yourself.

Teens — always labeled as rebels, but do parents really know what a REBEL is? It isn’t enough to call your offsprings a rebel when they like black clothes, listen to rock bands, go home late, etc etc etc. Don’t generalize it. Besides, teenage life isn’t as easy as it seems. You guys have experienced this, but why don’t you let us feel that growing up as a teen is pretty much different from yours? Haven’t you guys got drunk secretly? Haven’t you have secret relationships? Didn’t enjoy music and disco?

Not because some of us like black, heavy metal songs and emo hairstyles doesn’t really make us rebellious. A rebellious kid is the one who gives problems to his/her family in financial and emotional terms. A rebellious teenager is perhaps someone who goes home early in the morning or doesn’t even go home at all, doesn’t like black, but likes to be naked ALL THE TIME, a member of a satanic cult, brings home girls/boys and bang them, drink beer infront of you, and the list goes on.

So don’t be too sure of what you know.. Things change.. So does people’s lifestyle.

P.S

This isn’t an anti-parent post. This is just a plea.

I’m trying. Can’t you see?

THERE’S NOTHING MORE I COULD ASK FOR, BUT SIMPLY LET ME BE ME.

I thought this happiness was going to last. Thing is, I know I have grown to be a happier person. To have a positive outlook in life. To start anew. But then, it’ll all still come to an end.

Being the “rebellious” one was not an easy choice. It was the only choice I had.

Quote and quote because I never was a rebel. You guys only think I WAS. Could you read my mind? NO.

As you can see, I am happy. Well, let me rephrase that for you.. HAPPIER. HAPPIER because I never wanted to be as dull as I was before. Happier because I started to be open. HAPPIER because I feel free due to my freedom to talk, to share, to laugh and to stand up for my rights. Yes, I practiced my assertiveness.

Thing is, you always say I was DULL. I was lonesome. I was slowly doing things my own way, having my own world, being happy ONLY WHEN MY FRIENDS ARE AROUND. Haven’t you asked yourself why I act as such? Haven’t it crossed your mind that you did something wrong? Or you GUYS did something wrong? You’d always consider your side, but what about mine?

And now, I thought things was better, but you push me to the past. So what’s it gonna be? Do you want me to return to the OLD and DULL me? Well, fine with me. I won’t be the one suffering anyway. It will be you. BEING TOO HONEST EH? Then, I’ll show you HONESTY too.

And yes, I’m done ranting. I shall cry myself to sleep.

Barely Legal

 happy birthday to me. happy birthday to me.

Yep. Today’s my 17th birthday.

Lahat Bago

 Lahat magiging bago.. And I’m referring to COLLEGE LIFE.

Shh. 2 weeks to go before my classes starts. Sa June 16 na and I can’t wait. Alam ko di magiging ordinary day yun since hindi naman magiging ordinary ang feeling ko. Unlike when I was still in highschool, the only exciting day was my first day in Highschool as a Freshman. At 2 weeks from now, I’ll be a Freshman again. College nga lang. Lahat naman siguro satin eh kinabahan nung first day nila sa college kasi siyempre totally different na. The teachers will be different, perhaps more “weird” classmates, and yeah, no permanent classmates. Unlike nung nasa gradeschool ako, di naman talaga ako ganun ka-excited tumapak sa highschool kasi hindi naman ganun ka-different.

No medication

 The doctor didn’t advice any slimming medicine.

Why? Because he said that I’m too young for that thing. Okay, so this is prolly my 3rd post regarding my weight problem. I’m actually happy that I’m now an “overweight” rather than the usual me being an ooo.. obb.. obbee.. obese. There, I’ve said it. (It’s hard to spell it out. Pfft!) I really really have a slow metabolism, that’s why I gain excess fat easily.

Reminiscing Childhood

 I miss my childhood days.

I’ve always been a happy kid. I wasn’t spoiled, but I get the stuff I want by doing something good in return. When I was younger, home, friends and school were the problems on my list. Home, because I always wanted my parents to be happy. Friends, because through them, I feel that I belong. Home, because it was a place safety, a place of happiness. When I was a kid, I always do my best in school to get an honor card. Because that honor card is my ticket to buying the stuff that I’ve been eyeing on.

Bakit?

       BAKIT?    

by: TRISHIE B.

 

Di ko alam kung bat ganito,

Kailangan ba talagang masaktan ako?

Kung kelan tumino,

saka nabigo..

Ang lupit nga ng mundong nagbabago.

 

Nagtatanong kung san nagkulang,

nagtataka sa sinapit na karanasan,

bakit nagkaganito?

bakit biglang nagbago?

 

Ikaw ang kahinaan ko,

halos ibigay ko lahat sa iyo,

bakit ba di parin yun sapat?

ano ba talaga ang dapat?

 

Nandyan ka para sakin,

lagi ka nasa aking piling..

pero bakit ang puso mo ay di ko na maangkin?

 

Ako’y gulong-gulo.

Bigla kang naglaho.

At sa iyong pagbabalik ay walang nagbago,

pwera na lang sa puso mong di ko na matatago.

 

Bakit siya ang karapatdapat?

Bakit sa kanya ka naging tapat?

Paano na akong nag-sakripisyo?

Sabi mo mahal mo ko, pero ang natanggap ko ay puro perwisyo.

 

Hindi ko naman sinisisi lahat sayo.

Malamang may ayaw kang ginawa ko.

Pero gusto ko lang na malaman mo,

kahit nagmukha akong tanga sa kakahabol sayo,

gusto parin kita, kahit sinaktan mo ako.

I got goodies!

 I’m so glad. My bestfriend is home and she bought me some goodies!

I always wanted receiving “pasalubongs”. I mean, somehow, for me, it’s a symbol that the person who’s miles away is thinking about you that’s why he/she decided to give you some goodies from where he/she stayed. Besides, there are just some goodies that are only available at certain places just like what my bestfriend had with her.